Raimi

A crazy situation that everybody was afraid of, but I hope, or at least it seems, it didn’t turn out to be as bad as everybody thought in the beginning, at least in Estonia.

To be honest, I couldn’t have been prepared any better. It was weird that, in a way, not much changed for me. A week or a month into this epidemic, I was talking with my friends and thought: “Nothing really changed for me: that’s how I lived before”. I don’t know if it’s good or sad. I was already spending a lot of time alone, working at home, basically only going out with the dog, doing the shopping, getting the groceries.

So, I was way in the f-ing lockdown before it happened. So I don’t know what you are talking about here. [laughing]. I thought it was fine. But then, when they started to open everything, I think they opened the playgrounds last. I was going by and saw it and was so surprised. “Like, already? Is it reasonable? I don’t know.” But then I put it together — they must have opened skate parks as well. And then I felt this freedom like they finally opened things. And it was closed, how long, maybe two months?

I thought I didn’t miss anything, but when they opened them, it felt like it was some kind of release: “YEAH!”. The weight was lifted.

During this epidemic, stuff happened. It was all really hectic. No one knew what it was, how to act: they were just making up the rules. They did one thing, and the next week, they completely changed everything because they were just like trying out what would work. And I don’t know if I trust them, why should I trust them? No one knew what it was, so it was a bit scary.

I feel weird telling about this, but picking up stuff like meditating, doing breathing exercises — that’s what I found super-useful.

I wonder if we’re now living like this, that every autumn and spring we’re going to have this: everybody locked down, wearing masks, is it going to be an annual thing? We will see.